Writer's Block
4 July 2007I feel like I’ve had a mental blockage for over a year now. I will sometimes sit in front of my computer, looking at the main page of my site and thinking, “What goes here?” I’ll lean back, thumb and forefinger on my chin, look up to the ceiling and ponder, “What could I even write about?” Then oftentimes, I will click through to my old archives, typically during the living-alone-and-slowly-going-mad-in-Houston era where I believe my funny was at its peak, have a wee chuckle over how I used to amuse myself considerably, which inevitably will always lead to the same place – crying into my pillow about losing my textual creativity.
I guess it isn’t altogether a bad thing though. My visual creativity (i.e., my photography) has increased significantly over the past couple of years. I have created a graph to demonstrate this from 2000 to now:
After mapping my interest levels and producing this graph I can see how my interest levels have panned out over time: 2000 – writing motivation levels at their highest due to the Internet Rockstar; 2003 – photography interest growing due to European travels, lots of looking at old things and lack of wireless internet beginning withdrawals from the internet; 2005 – quarter-life crisis hits and proceeds for some many, many, many months, motivation levels for all decline; 2007 – toyboy acquired to offset quarter-life crisis, motivation levels for favourite hobby increase exponentially.
I’m getting a lot more use out of my D70 these days as I have discovered that combining two or three favourite hobbies can create a “Super Hobby”. My Super Hobby is photographer+drum and bass+getting wasted. What could be better, well aside from getting my ass into gear and getting these photos published in music magazines or working on my stupid portfolio which is not really stupid but would be completely awesome but I have no time or motivation to do it myself and instead want my friend Matt to do this for me, not even for free, but he doesn’t have time either.
I also realised I have been writing for the internet for a decade. A DECADE. That is a very long time. After explaining to a friend why I didn’t update my site that much anymore last week, I was asked if I had retired from the internet and I realised I have semi-retired from the land o’ blog. That is, at least until my writer’s block has been cleared, which everyone knows only happens when you become addicted to heroin. I can’t wait!
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I feel the same. Although on a smaller scale.
That quarter-life crisis is no joke! I turn 27 in August, eek! I should really update my resume.
Hi Ani,
I used to read your website all the time after the cool kids talked me into it. I forgot about you for a couple of years while I went off on my own global travels. But I remembered you today and decided to catch up on what you’ve been up to since 2003 (I moved to Hiroshima thanks for asking). What a shock to discover we both moved to Manchester at the same time (but I was about four months quicker than you at getting the fuck out – 24 Hour Party People lied to me, it was a dirty shithole). Out of interest, where were you living? I was in the flat next door to Oklahoma (our kitchen was on the other side of the wall where the records and DVDs were(opposite the Buddhist Centre). I’m now living in Brighton which is still as fantastic as your brief visit suggested. I miss Cornerhouse though.